My Lone Ranger

Yesterday I realized something(well actually I realized it a long time ago, but yesterday it really hit home). I have 4 kids (I know you're probably tired of me reiterating that) 3 girls and 1 boy...my son the lone ranger in a sea (or house) full of girls. I wonder what he must think of all the girls? I wonder if he looks at all of the dolls and make-up and dress-up clothes and thinks to himself, "What in the world did I get myself into?"

When I first found out I was having a boy I panicked, I had only had girls and I had no idea how to be a Mommy to a boy. How could I potty train him? Could I really play trucks and climb trees? I honestly had no idea if I could be a good mom to a boy. Fast forward a few months to the first time I held my son in my arms and looked into his big brown eyes, that's when I realized that I could definitely be his Mommy! The first few months were full of firsts; the first time one of my kids peed in my face (this one I could have done without), first circumcision (scared me to death), and the first time I knew without one single doubt that I had fallen hopelessly in love with a boy. When my son was 6 months old I found out I was pregnant again...of course I was shocked (I shouldn't have been considering the non-existent birth control we were using) but I was shocked none-the-less. I was scared that my son would feel abandoned and that he wouldn't understand. It took me a while to come to terms with it and even admit that I was pregnant, but I finally did and realized that it would be alright. When I brought my daughter home from the hospital my son wanted nothing to do with her. We would try to get him to give her kisses and he would push her away. When she would cry he would just stand there and stare at her with this disgusted look on his face. When I would pick her up and talk to her he would become outraged and throw horrible fits. For the longest time (alright it was really only a little over two months, but it felt like an eternity) I wondered if he would ever accept and love her. Yesterday I got my answer.
In case you can't see he has his arm around her. My heart literally melted right out of my chest. And I have to be honest and tell you that she seemed to really enjoy laying beside her Bubby...and I think he liked it too!