It’s not often that I get to sit down and write a personal post, and I really have too much to do to be doing it now, but I needed to get some of the stuff I’ve been carrying around off of my chest…so thanks in advance for listening!
Wow where to begin…hmmm let’s start with the #1 source of my stress at the moment—school. I never dreamed when I enrolled at N.K.U. that I would be in over my head, I’m a pro at college after all, or so I thought. I can’t even begin to tell you how much different a big university is compared to the small community college I used to attend. The professors are harder, the courses are harder, and the grades are harder to keep on point…I am doing well, but it is definitely a struggle to keep it up! One of the classes giving me the biggest headache at the moment is my Small Group Communications class…the professor has it out for me I’m just convinced that he does…he refuses to give me a grade higher than a B and I am NOT happy about that. But I suppose that just like anything else worth having in life a college degree is not going to come easily…and I am trying to make myself understand that one B at a time!
Another area of stress in my life at the moment is my children, it seems like the more stressed out I get the more they refuse to listen. My oldest daughter’s seem to have went straight from preschoolers to teenagers, completely skipping the years where they are supposed to listen and do what they are told. Instead of listening my daughters give me 125 reasons why they shouldn’t do this or why they need to do that and it is starting to rub me the wrong way. I am notorious for NOT following through with punishment and I know that needs to change, it is yet another thing I need to work harder at in the coming months.
My youngest children seem to have minds of their own as well and those minds seem to be in complete agreement that Mommy is the enemy and she must be taken out at all costs. Between the constant running, screaming, mess making, and tantrums and the fact that they NEVER take naps but somehow manage to stay up till 1 am (or often later) is turning me into one cranky, pissed off, Zombie Mommy! I have tried every trick in the book when it comes to discipline for my youngest; the ones that worked on my oldest daughters, the ones that never worked on my oldest daughters, and the ones that everyone and their mother want to suggest when I mention my two hellions, I mean angels, and NOTHING works. Some days I feel like I am fighting a losing battle, some days I want to crawl into my bed and hide from the world, but I don’t and I will not stop my quest for world domination, I mean finding a way to discipline my unruly kiddos.
That brings us to my bliggity blog…you liked that huh. I feel like Misadventures is coming into its own (and I have all of you to think for that) but it is also becoming much harder to balance life, school, demons (I mean kiddos), and my blog equally so if you notice I never post of weekends that would be why. Hopefully I will figure it all out soon enough, or not as the case will most certainly be, but I guess I have a lifetime to work on that!
Wow where to begin…hmmm let’s start with the #1 source of my stress at the moment—school. I never dreamed when I enrolled at N.K.U. that I would be in over my head, I’m a pro at college after all, or so I thought. I can’t even begin to tell you how much different a big university is compared to the small community college I used to attend. The professors are harder, the courses are harder, and the grades are harder to keep on point…I am doing well, but it is definitely a struggle to keep it up! One of the classes giving me the biggest headache at the moment is my Small Group Communications class…the professor has it out for me I’m just convinced that he does…he refuses to give me a grade higher than a B and I am NOT happy about that. But I suppose that just like anything else worth having in life a college degree is not going to come easily…and I am trying to make myself understand that one B at a time!
Another area of stress in my life at the moment is my children, it seems like the more stressed out I get the more they refuse to listen. My oldest daughter’s seem to have went straight from preschoolers to teenagers, completely skipping the years where they are supposed to listen and do what they are told. Instead of listening my daughters give me 125 reasons why they shouldn’t do this or why they need to do that and it is starting to rub me the wrong way. I am notorious for NOT following through with punishment and I know that needs to change, it is yet another thing I need to work harder at in the coming months.
My youngest children seem to have minds of their own as well and those minds seem to be in complete agreement that Mommy is the enemy and she must be taken out at all costs. Between the constant running, screaming, mess making, and tantrums and the fact that they NEVER take naps but somehow manage to stay up till 1 am (or often later) is turning me into one cranky, pissed off, Zombie Mommy! I have tried every trick in the book when it comes to discipline for my youngest; the ones that worked on my oldest daughters, the ones that never worked on my oldest daughters, and the ones that everyone and their mother want to suggest when I mention my two hellions, I mean angels, and NOTHING works. Some days I feel like I am fighting a losing battle, some days I want to crawl into my bed and hide from the world, but I don’t and I will not stop my quest for world domination, I mean finding a way to discipline my unruly kiddos.
That brings us to my bliggity blog…you liked that huh. I feel like Misadventures is coming into its own (and I have all of you to think for that) but it is also becoming much harder to balance life, school, demons (I mean kiddos), and my blog equally so if you notice I never post of weekends that would be why. Hopefully I will figure it all out soon enough, or not as the case will most certainly be, but I guess I have a lifetime to work on that!
Sometimes you need to take care of YOU! and not worry about us. Take a deep breath and relax, it will work out.
ReplyDeleteThanks sweetie! I do know that I need to, but I am definitely the type of person who puts me WAY down the list! However, my blog is the one thing that does help me calm down some (and it is just about the only me time I take lately) so y'all are stuck with me!
ReplyDeletePersonally I think your blog needs to come last. Family and school, sleep and then when you can the blog. No one should be expected to handle more plates at one time then they can without dropping all of them and making a huge mess. Just carry the number of plates you can at one time comfortably and safely. The other plates can be picked up and carried to life's table at a less hectic time.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much...I like the way you look at it. I agree that I definitely need to put me higher on the list, but it's been 31 years of stubbornness it will be interesting to see if I can change now lol.
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