I was surfing blogs last night when I came across a blog called Angel Believes (I found it through another blogger I occasionally visit). I started looking around and came to a post called 30 Days of Truth…knowing how badly I want to do more personal writing on Misadventures I decided, what the heck, I’m gonna give it a try. So here goes.
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself!
Wow they go straight for the jugular huh? Alright let’s see, something I hate about myself. Well I would like to say my weight since I have gained a few pounds in the past few years, but I decided that using that as something I hate about me is just a cop out—so I dug deeper.
So the one thing I hate about myself more than anything is that I am a control freak and I let it run my life. I get the need to be a control freak from my mother, and her being a control freak is also the thing I hate most about her…go figure. I try to control every single situation and scenario in my life and if I can’t control it I freak out! I have let the need to control everything ruin things that should be fun for my kids, like going on the Ferris wheel at the fair…I will not let them do it because I can’t control what happens when they are on the ride. I have let that same fear of losing control keep me from doing things that I really want to do like riding a roller coaster, flying in an airplane, riding on a motorcycle. It’s all so stupid, but that need to control the situation seems to keep me hostage sometimes. This is probably the one thing about myself that I need to work on more than any other…and I hope that one of these days I can write another post and tell you that Allison the Control Freak is no more!
Wow that actually felt good, admitting something that I don’t usually tell people, it was very freeing!
I can’t wait to share the rest of my 30 Days of Truth with you all!
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself!
Wow they go straight for the jugular huh? Alright let’s see, something I hate about myself. Well I would like to say my weight since I have gained a few pounds in the past few years, but I decided that using that as something I hate about me is just a cop out—so I dug deeper.
So the one thing I hate about myself more than anything is that I am a control freak and I let it run my life. I get the need to be a control freak from my mother, and her being a control freak is also the thing I hate most about her…go figure. I try to control every single situation and scenario in my life and if I can’t control it I freak out! I have let the need to control everything ruin things that should be fun for my kids, like going on the Ferris wheel at the fair…I will not let them do it because I can’t control what happens when they are on the ride. I have let that same fear of losing control keep me from doing things that I really want to do like riding a roller coaster, flying in an airplane, riding on a motorcycle. It’s all so stupid, but that need to control the situation seems to keep me hostage sometimes. This is probably the one thing about myself that I need to work on more than any other…and I hope that one of these days I can write another post and tell you that Allison the Control Freak is no more!
Wow that actually felt good, admitting something that I don’t usually tell people, it was very freeing!
I can’t wait to share the rest of my 30 Days of Truth with you all!
Hello, my name is Elizabeth and I'm a control freak, too! My type-A personality is my husband's biggest pet peeve about me. I didn't even realize it was a problem until we were married... how's that for ignoring one's own flaws?
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LOL Well at least I feel better that I'm not alone!
ReplyDeleteWell ty so much for hopping on this journey. Trust me it opens up a lot of things.. Following you now.. and can't wait to learn more about you and your life..
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